"White Lies"

crazy get together wearing White Lies tees...

http://whiteliesbkk.blogspot.com/ loves it!!

black and white insanity = "zebra"

camwhorin...this is wat happens when i go to bed early...i really can't
black spandex shirt - 80s shop platinum
zebra skirt - onnut square
silver shoes - footwork
necklaces n earrings - from tita grace :)
bracelets - chinatown n platinum...
sunglasses - suan lum night bazaar

The Last Grip...

July is my favorite month of the year simply because it's the month I was born in...and every year I look forward to it in excitement because I will always have a big party with my family and friends...

this year it was different...it turned out to be the worst month of my whole year because I lost someone very important and close to me...I lost my grandma 3 days before my birthday and for first time in my life I said goodbye to someone I love, touching her and whispering my last words to her in her death bed...

..to have someone so close to me die, felt like I was being ripped, stabbed and punched all at the same time...the hurt stings and it continues to sting because it leaves a big bruise, a bruise that can't fade away...because that bruise reminds me of her...it still hurts so much because I miss her and I feel that I didn't do my best to show that I love her....


...Just imagine that the first time I ever held her so close to me was when she was already half-unconcious in the hospital...the first time I ever said I love you to her was when she was fighting for her life...and the first time I printed her picture and put it on a frame was for her wake...

I did these things too late...I did things to show her I love her too late....and she won't be here again... and it's so painful...because until now I'm still full of regret...and she will never know face to face that I love her so much...


I never believed on life being short, because we live it..we waste it...we savor it...we trash it...but I never anticipated of not having it...she was taken away by surprise, like a robbery happening, only difference is you don't know who to run after to get what u lost back...you only have to stand there in the middle of nowhere...accepting that she will never be returned to you...

It's another lesson learned again, a slap in the face....that you never go a day not saying I love you to the one you love..because you'll never know when they'll be taken away....

I miss you mommy Lyds and thank you for that last grip you gave me before you left reminding us to never lose hope..and always keep fighting until our last breath...i love you..

"Milktography"

I really need a break from everything happening in my life right now...If I write about it, its going to be depressing...So I'll write about something else before I leave the office and go to the hospital...and before they close the elevator...

As an account planner, a part of my job is to look for trends, and I stumbled into this website called http://www.trendhunter.com/ it really has a lot of cool stuff about trends and it helps me alot in submitting monthly trend reports but what i love most about the site is the fashion photography it features and its all classified into categories too..so its so easy to find... so there was a week when I was just doing MILK all products and I came upon these photos...

I love photography the best when its partnered with movement and I think these photos with ladies posing with milk might be another great way to convince men or the general public to drink milk...

If milk was advertise like this when I was 5 years old, I'd probably drink it everyday without knowing the nutrients it gives me!!!hehehe...so check it out

High-Fashion Milktography:

Love the hair and Make-Up

Love the colors of the pictures

"This is the new way to drink milk without drinking it"

Andrey Razumovsky photos....(below)

i love this picture Milk+Dance = True Beauty

SURPRISE*

Many say that for someone to be a great dancer, one has to possess the gift of timing and coordination, you have to have the rhythm of the music and beats imprinted in your soul...so that dance or any kind of movement flows out of you naturally....

but no matter how i try to perfect my timing in dance, the reality is, there's really no timing for anything...sometimes life will take you by surprise and you'll just be off beat and stumble and fall...

that's how my life went last week, i was in my performance rhythm, dance here, practice here, buy costumes at this hour, sleepover here, prepare this and that, meet deadlines, try to get sleep

and then everything just went to a stop when I got a phone call, that my grandma fell and had a stroke....no one has ever had a stroke in our family before and I was so scared....

....I kept reminding myself of my grandma, this woman, so strong, independent, and stubborn, she doesn't want anyone to worry about her, she dances to the beat of her own drum...

and yet when I saw her, she lying there peacefully, so weak and helpless, and sick. It was a painful sight to see and its a memory that still vivid in my mind...

...so we just prayed...we stormed heaven with prayers hoping she'll be alright and she'll be back to normal...but more sad news came when we knew that her medication didn't work and we had no other choice but brain surgery....

...the worse thing was when i heard this news i wasn't even close to her cuz i had dance rehearsals, so I freaked out in the corner and had screaming sobs, luckily my dance teacher shared words that soothed me for a while...and then I just danced and once again it performed its magic. Everytime I'm in sitautions I can't handle, it's only dance coupled with prayer that can makes me feel no pain...so I practiced as best as I could, and when I stopped dancing to go to the hospital I cried again....

I thank God that the operation was successful, my grandma is now out of the ICU and recovering fast, and as for my dance performance, it was a success...

My biggest dream is to be the best dancer in the world...preferabbly one with great timing and effortless movements...but what I should become is a great dancer who not only perfects timing in dance but also in situations that can take me by surprise and can knock me down....

I want to be the best dancer I can be as well be the best dancer in dancing through these shocking moments in my life with passion, grace and perfect rhythm...

At Last...

So these past few weeks have been crazy and I had so many breakdowns in between...

I don't know why my emotions always swallow me...but I often find myself in a bathroom cubicle sobbing quietly, screaming silently on how I'm not happy and why I'm going through this misery.....

...but then the sobs die down and I compose myself and I think everything through and then I everything will be okay again at least for now...

...I learned so much in these past few weeks and once again I was really humbled....

I got to be reminded that sometimes I'm not aware that my actions hurt people and that alot of the stress I have on me is really just self inflicted, I was just too scared to confront myself and tell "me" that I do have a flaw, a problem...and sometimes I'm not the best in whatever I do...

..but then again I think God really loves me because He saved me again...

I find myself always wanting to learn it the hard way that I'm already hanging on a thread

but then He saves me again and again and again...

....I learned that despite my victory of being single for 6 months, a part of me is really depressed of the fact that all the men I dated and loved were wrong for me and at some point they all cheated on me...Urgh!!!cheating...I hate this word....but even if I was the victim of it, still I hope and think positively and dumbly that they will change for the better and that I did change them for the better when they were with me...but so what??what does it mean??when in the end I'm still the one left alone, I'm still the one who stands strong and watch them as they have another girl hours after....

...I also learned that inside I complain too much about everything but I won't do anything to change it because im afraid...a big part of me is scared of change...I have so much fears of the dreams I want to follow...I doubt and question myself on something I do so well....

but I want it more than anything....

....haay..i'm complicated, weird, and confused at many times...but I hope that I would change for the better..and really fight for something I've wanted for soo long...

..in time...we'll see...

Sharing the Passion*

Just imagine driving on the road....and suddenly you see a sexy Madonna/Kate Moss look alike in a mini lace dress with a bright red lips
...you slow down....
then you see a very colorful bubbly Dorothy carrying her red shoes looking lost
...you stop wanting to help her....but didn't...
and just as you were about to step on your accelerator...
you see two sizzling HOT chicks in a biker grunge rock clothes ready to destroy anything that comes their way...
you now get out of your car and witness this free breathtaking experience...

...if you were driving around rama9 road on a saturday morning you will be having the pleasure enjoying the view, because we definitely stopped cars last weeked...luckily no accident happened!!!
...so three sets with 2 beautiful models and pairing up with an amazing stylist, my friend natalie...
as my cousin marise said "sharing is loving".... so in this shoot i shared my passion in make-up and styling with nat...and it turned out really good cuz shes a rockin stylist!!watch out new yorkers, she's coming your way soon...
...so we had 2 weeks to prepare for our concepts and we got down to 2, "grunge rock and dorothy from wizard of oz"...as nat was busy making the clothes for the shoot, i was researching for references of make-up to match the styling...and i was so happy it turned out good!!!

i had to use so much black make-up on this shoot..and black eyeshadow has always been my frenemy in make-up..its sooo hard to use..becuz once it smears..u have to do the foundation all over again...but it looks very good in photos...
..i also stumbled this hair salon shop on my way to buying more make-up so i got myself the right tools to make bouffant hair!!!and it really works!!!
i love this shoot because i got time to experiment more with make-up and hair without worrying about the styling...thanks to nat... it's not often you get to work with a good stylist!!!
and i had 4 make-up changes in limited time and still it turned out alright...wooohoo...

so this is our work of art!!!
photos from my godfather: Manny Librodo
and his workshop attendee: Andrew Koran