black and white insanity = "zebra"

camwhorin...this is wat happens when i go to bed early...i really can't
black spandex shirt - 80s shop platinum
zebra skirt - onnut square
silver shoes - footwork
necklaces n earrings - from tita grace :)
bracelets - chinatown n platinum...
sunglasses - suan lum night bazaar

The Last Grip...

July is my favorite month of the year simply because it's the month I was born in...and every year I look forward to it in excitement because I will always have a big party with my family and friends...

this year it was different...it turned out to be the worst month of my whole year because I lost someone very important and close to me...I lost my grandma 3 days before my birthday and for first time in my life I said goodbye to someone I love, touching her and whispering my last words to her in her death bed...

..to have someone so close to me die, felt like I was being ripped, stabbed and punched all at the same time...the hurt stings and it continues to sting because it leaves a big bruise, a bruise that can't fade away...because that bruise reminds me of her...it still hurts so much because I miss her and I feel that I didn't do my best to show that I love her....


...Just imagine that the first time I ever held her so close to me was when she was already half-unconcious in the hospital...the first time I ever said I love you to her was when she was fighting for her life...and the first time I printed her picture and put it on a frame was for her wake...

I did these things too late...I did things to show her I love her too late....and she won't be here again... and it's so painful...because until now I'm still full of regret...and she will never know face to face that I love her so much...


I never believed on life being short, because we live it..we waste it...we savor it...we trash it...but I never anticipated of not having it...she was taken away by surprise, like a robbery happening, only difference is you don't know who to run after to get what u lost back...you only have to stand there in the middle of nowhere...accepting that she will never be returned to you...

It's another lesson learned again, a slap in the face....that you never go a day not saying I love you to the one you love..because you'll never know when they'll be taken away....

I miss you mommy Lyds and thank you for that last grip you gave me before you left reminding us to never lose hope..and always keep fighting until our last breath...i love you..